Monday

Thinking about this coming Monday takes my breath away. It is on that day that my life could change. Spoiler alert – I don’t want my life to change.

To get you all up to speed….

As you know, I had a tumor that was discovered in the scar tissue in my tush. The problem was that in order to radiate it effectively, they needed to see it on scan. So a few weeks ago, I took both a PET/CT scan and an MRI with radiation. Fortunately, they were able to locate the tumor and I commenced a 10 round radiation program on July 14. The radiation oncologist was wonderful working with my schedule. He even planned for 2 rounds of radiation on the 17^th so that I could fly down to San Diego that evening. I had to present to my board the following morning and I was holding a fundraiser for the Assembly speaker that afternoon. Amazingly, everything went off without a hitch. I can’t tell you how incredible it was that he was able to work with me – although he did think I was a little nuts.

Unfortunately, the PET/CT scan showed a lot more activity than my previous PET/CT.  This is very concerning for everyone since it could indicate significant cancer growth. So – on Monday, I will be given a regular CT to see if there is growth or if what was lighting up the CT was only inflammation. If my CT shows growth, I will be kicked off of my wonderful Genentech trial with PDL-1. My options at that point are not encouraging. They basically consist of 3 potential paths forward:

1. Go on a trial called CTLA4 – this would inject another immunotherapy directly into a tumor and then we’d blast it with radiation with the hope that it would ignite my immune system to go after the cancer throughout my body (very similar conceptually to what we’ve been doing). Unfortunately, there aren’t great stats that show that this will work on colon cancer.
2. Go on another trial with a name I can’t remember – there is a small company with a single product that they are considering for me. Unfortunately, the trial is in Phase 1, so there are hardly any results.  Also – this trial would entail me going down to Stanford twice a week for 6 weeks for a 4-6 hour infusion. Pretty awful sounding with no encouraging stats to make me excited about putting myself through it.
3. Go back on chemo

So – as you can see, I am really really praying that the CT scan shows stable disease and that I won’t be contemplating any of the 3 options above. If it doesn’t show stable disease, I will most likely try to find out if there are other options with other cancer centers.

I am also continuing to be in a lot of pain from the radiation. They said that the pain should begin to dissipate after a few weeks. It can’t come soon enough. I’m having trouble sleeping because of the pain and that makes dealing with all of this uncertainty even more difficult.

Now you are all up to speed on the latest.  I hate to ask it again, but I need your prayers over the next several days. I’m scared right now. I’m tired right now. I need your strength.  I need your love. I need your faith and hope.