Today I went in to Stanford for my post-surgery CT. Unfortunately, there seem to be 4-5 abnormalities and George believes that they are most likely cancerous. They are located in my upper abdomen and by my pancreas and bladder. The look of sadness in his eyes overwhelmed me.
The next steps are to get a CT-PET scan in the next few days so that they can see if the spots are active. We will also see what my blood work looks like (I should get the results tomorrow). Next Wednesday, I'll meet with George again to determine next steps. But - most likely - some harsher chemo is in my future. If I have multiple spots, George said that they would not be able to radiate or operate on them, so chemo is my best option. Unfortunately, our chemo options are limited for colon cancer. (Which is why I'm so adamant about the passage of Prop 29 next week. It really is my best chance to see the girls grow up. But - I'll stop the commercial now)
I'm so very very sad right now. This is my 5th recurrence in less than 5 years. Tomorrow night, I am supposed to be speaking to 500 American Cancer Society volunteers at their annual dinner. I was planning to talk about hope. Honestly, I'm not feeling a lot of that right now. I am so very tired of fighting.
Tonight I will wallow in my sorrow. But tomorrow, I will wake up and put my game face on and be ready to fight again. That's what I do - I won't go down without a fight. Please be with me. Send me your prayers as I embark on what will be a very difficult journey ahead.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Mother’s Day & Lance Armstrong (my new BFF)
This is my 4th
Mother’s Day since the discovery of my cancer. I have lost so many organs and subjected my
body to so much over the past 4 years. I
am grateful to my body for barreling through all of the indignities and pain -
enabling me to reach this day. To wake
up to breakfast in bed from two loving girls and my darling husband is such a
gift.
When I saw their sweet smiling faces this morning, so
pleased with their efforts, I was once again reminded why I continue to subject
my body to the needles, knives and poison. - so that I can see many many more
Mother’s Days.
And that is why I am so committed to passing the California
Cancer Research Act (Prop 29) – which
will provide hundreds of millions of dollars every year for cancer research. And it’s only $1 extra on each pack of
cigarettes – the very product that causes cancer and so many other health
problems and costs. Smokers in 33 other
states pay more than Californians because each time this comes before the
voters, Big Tobacco fights it….hard.
Once again, Big Tobacco is absolutely determined to defeat
this bill. They are dumping tens of
millions of dollars into misleading ad campaigns that are running continuously
on both TV and the radio. It’s
appalling.
Fortunately, the Yes on Prop 29 campaign finally has pieced
together enough money to put commercials on the air. But we’re looking at a campaign chest of just
over $4 million compared to Big Tobacco’s deep pockets….it’s truly a David and
Goliath moment.
I know that many of you have seen the ads this week on TV –
since I’ve gotten e-mails from folks all over Northern California saying that
they’ve seen me on TV. (It’s so exciting
being a minor celebrity!!) As you all
know, I filmed those spots 3 days post surgery, so I’m not looking my most
stunning (I’m bloated, tired and a bit loopy) – but there was no way that I was
going to miss the opportunity to be a part of the effort to get this important
proposition passed. One of the
commercials has Lance Armstrong and me bookending the spot…which naturally
makes us new BFFs! (I’m sure that he’ll
be calling me soon to get together…) If you want to see our spot, go to http://californiansforacure.org/ and look for the ad with Lance.
Absentee ballots have been arriving this past week to voters
in California. On behalf of cancer
patients everywhere and those who love them, if you live in California, please
vote for Prop 29. Please ask your family
and friends to vote for Prop 29 (this also goes for those of you who don’t live
in California but know people who live here).
Furthermore – if you have the ability to help our campaign, please do
so. Every time we turn around, Big Tobacco is writing yet
another big check to the “No on Prop 29.”
To Donate, just
go to the following site: http://CaliforniansForACure.org/action/donate and where it says
"advocate" please put down "Eve Bukowski.
This Proposition is critical for those of us who are
fighting every day against this terrible disease. Please help me and so many others get to
celebrate another Mother’s Day. There
is no more important gift that you can give.
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